The next thirty days I spent in an effort to defeat the outer voice. Outer voice is what will people think, what will people say. I don’t know why so many people have this issue, it is surely a something that allows us to work together well. However, for me, it often causes issues. I should be able to ask for things without second thought.
Week 1 and 2
Basically, I did very little. I did not create a schedule. However, in my mind there was a constant questioning of “am I asking enough, should I be asking. Unlike other challenges, it was all encompassing and constant in my mind. Even if I wasn’t actually accomplishing a daily task.
Week 3 and 4
By the end, I began to actually recognise moments when I didn’t speak up. I began to actually speak and ask questions and request help. I began to email and request help that I did not before.
It’s very important to ask for what you need. It can be small or big but what I learned is to ask for something is to show humility, to recognise a need in someone and that you don’t have all the answers. It is to show trust for another and to ask for their help, to show that you don’t know everything and that they might know more than you.
Next Month: Getting 8 hours of rest, waking early and going to bed early.